If you have followed this journey, you have seen the layers — instability, loss, grief, surrender. Each season stripped something away.
But this one? This one revealed something.
It revealed that God doesn’t just heal us. He goes ahead of us.
I have had this post sitting with me for weeks.
I felt prompted to finish writing about my biological mother first. It was necessary. It was obedience. But every time I returned to this piece, it felt unfinished.
I kept asking, “God, what else do You want me to write?”
Then I understood.
Recently, I was confronted with words that challenged the work God has been doing in me.
They carried fear, uncertainty, and conclusions about who I am — and who I may never become.
For a moment, I felt the pull to defend myself. To question my growth. To absorb what wasn’t mine to carry.
Almost.
But before doubt could settle, God interrupted me.
Before I internalized someone else’s fear as truth.
Before old labels could reattach themselves.
Before I measured my becoming through someone else’s lens.
This is what He impressed on my heart: I am carrying you on eagles’ wings.
Not after the words were spoken.
Not in response to my reaction.
Before I even knew I would need it.
The Interruption
Weeks earlier, while reading my Bible, I found myself in Exodus 19. One verse stood out: “You have seen what I did to the Egyptians. You know how I carried you on eagles’ wings and brought you to myself.” — Exodus 19:4
At the time, I didn’t know why it lingered. Later, I did.
God was reminding Israel:
You didn’t free yourselves.
You didn’t orchestrate your deliverance.
You didn’t secure your future. I carried you.
The phrase on eagles’ wings stayed with me. I had heard it before — even sung it — but I had never truly seen it in Scripture because a girl wasn’t reading her bible.
When the Hillsong song Eagle’s Wings came to mind, it felt less like nostalgia and more like preparation.
God was not asking me to carry my transformation alone. He was reminding me that He carries me — especially into moments I cannot foresee.
It wasn’t coincidence, It was preparation.
And the truth is, I didn’t arrive here by announcing I was ready to be transformed. I didn’t pray, “God, change my lens.” He orchestrated the very seasons that shifted it — the instability, the grief, the surrender. Slowly, He is recalibrating how I see.
Not through self-protection.
But through trust.
Not through my perspective.
But through His.
When Old Wounds Try to Resurface
The words I received could have brushed against something old — the ache of rejection, the fear of abandonment.
But I am learning this: Not every thought that knocks gets to enter. The bible tells us: “We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” — 2 Corinthians 10:5
Not every opinion spoken over us carries authority. Even sincere words must be discerned and measured against God’s truth before we internalize them.
Scripture is clear: “The Lord will fulfil His purpose for me.” — Psalm 138:8
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” — Proverbs 19:21
No one has the final say over your destiny.
No one sits in the seat of Author over your becoming.
Not your past.
Not someone else’s disappointment.
Not even your own fear.
“He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion.” — Philippians 1:6
He began it.
He carries it.
He completes it.
Transformation is not publicly approved. It is divinely authored.
Carried Before I Knew I Would Need It
What struck me most is this:
God gave me Exodus 19:4 before the moment that could have unsettled me.
Before the doubts surfaced.
Before the words were spoken.
Before reassurance was necessary.
That is what being carried looks like.
He is ahead of the moment.
Ahead of the questions.
Ahead of the insecurity.
Your identity is not up for debate. It is not determined by someone else’s fear or projection.
It is secured in Him.
“If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation.” — 2 Corinthians 5:17
You are not who you were. And you are not confined to who someone else believes you to be.
No One Has the Final Say
People may think they understand your patterns.
They may believe they can predict your future.
They may speak from familiarity.
But familiarity does not equal authority.
“For I know the plans I have for you… plans to give you hope and a future.” — Jeremiah 29:11
Only God authors your life.
If He is carrying you on eagles’ wings, you are moving — even if others don’t see it.
You are growing — even if others question it.
You are becoming — even if someone doubts change is possible.
No human being determines your becoming.
God has the final say.
Closing Thought
God prepares us before we know we will need preparation.
He steadies us before the shaking.
He speaks before the doubt.
He carries before we stumble.
We are not defined by words, opinions, or fear.
Our growth, healing, and destiny are His to author.
And He is always ahead of us.
Closing Prayer
Father, thank You for speaking before the moment came.
Thank You for carrying me before I realized I would need it.
Guard my mind from internalizing words that do not come from You.
Anchor my identity in what You have spoken.
Continue the work You began in me, and give me the grace to trust that You will finish it.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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